Stay At Home Mom

As I was putting my baby to bed tonight, this thought came to my mind. Have I really been a stay at home mom for almost a year and I really love it? My answer was yes. I can not believe that!

My dad is a businessman in China, so I had always wanted to be a business woman growing up. I love to dress up in suits and sometimes I put on my suit for Sundays since I really don’t have any other occasion to wear it. I got my first suit when I was about 13 year old. I love seeing young ladies dress up in a nice suit because I think they look so sharp. It was my dream to be a business woman and wear a nice suit. I was one of those people who thought that stay at home moms are wasting their lives, and I had never imagined myself being a stay at home mom until about a year ago. I can not believe how God has changed my heart so much. He changed my heart from being totally against staying at home to love staying at home, and I believe that is one of the best things I can do for my children and my family.

I struggled about staying at home at the beginning of the year because financial issues and my heart issues. I thought it was a big hit for our income, but my husband and I discussed it and figured out with tax, child care, transportation, and other things, we are not missing much from my income. I was struggling with what I am going to say to my dad since he was the one who sent me to America and paid out of state tuition and everything for my college. His dream was for me to be successful. My heart feels guilty to my Dad, but I understand this is God’s will for me and my family. I know my Dad is not going to understand this, but I hope he can one day and I will keep praying for that. I don’t want to send my kids somewhere under others people care. I want to know how they do each day; I want to know what they are learning; I want to know if they have been eating well; I want to know if they have met new friends; I want to know everything about their lives. God gives this opportunity and I have to use it wisely.

After having conversations with my cousin in China about her baby girl, I see the confirmation that this is what God wants me to do, and I love it! My cousin sends her daughter to be with the grandparents, so she sees her daughter about every one to two weeks. I can not even imagine not seeing my children for a day. I enjoy waking up with my children each day; I enjoy doing devotions with them and hearing them discuss their thoughts on the verses; I enjoy having every meal with them and talking with them; I enjoy learning with them; I enjoy knowing my baby’s every step she takes; I enjoy going on field trips with them; etc. People who have kids in day care or other care or school are missing so much of their children’s lives. I am so happy that I quit my job, so I can be with my children.

I understand for a lot of moms it’s impossible to quit their job and stay home, but I want to encourage you to keep praying about it especially if God puts that on your heart. Your children will grow up fast and you can not have those memories back.